Here we go again with medication changes…
Originally posted on A Canvas Of The Minds:
I started mood stabilizers in November 2011, and after about 2 months of adjustments, I felt better than I had in years – clear-headed, stable, and just more myself. Added to my existing cocktail of stimulants for ADHD and bupropion (Wellbutrin) for depression, it seemed like a minor concession to bipolar disorder, medication-wise.
Recently, however, I experienced a bout of depression that was fiercer and longer than I’ve experienced in quite awhile. With both monthly hormonal shifts and high anxiety over a new job, the stage was set for a mood swing. This one was notably worse than any “blips” in recent memory and I lost several work days, which only increased the anxiety.
So it was with some trepidation that I went to my psych appointment earlier this week, at which point I was also starting to feel a bit better. It was already incredibly hard to admit how depressed and anxious I had felt just days before, not to mention feeling like I must be exaggerating or overly dramatic. I was armed with my mood charts and notes to keep me honest and had a good discussion with the psych nurse, who seems to really want to figure out the causes, and not just treat the symptoms.